Its almost a year now ...

Salam to all ...

Its almost a year since i joined dept. of info. Its a tottaly a new world 4 me, as i started fresh and vibrant again. D feeling as junior still aroused me on my first day, first week, first month and now first year in service. d fact that im still new and need to learn a lot.

Allah has written d fate that im belong here. this is a long journey for me, for at least 25 to 30 years ahead. i will utilize half of my life by serving this dept. sometimes i just wonder, can i do this?

the challenges r many, not enough time 4 me 2 mention. but i think, my biggest threat is myself. i realize that i can be so motivated at one time, where it can reach d sky, as sky is d limit. but, it can be d other way around. t4, sometimes im confused ...

this is what i want or this is what i need? it riddles me somehow ...

but, i believe and have to belive that Allah gives us things which we need, not what we want. because sometimes the thing that we want is not d best for us, as it may turn out to be a bad thing. but a thing which is not necessarily what we expected, it can shape us to be a better person, a better friend, a better boss, a better child, a better muslim ...

still, i cannot help myself by forgetting teaching. being a lecturer is always my passion, till death. u know, i alwiz had dreams on teaching my students, really teaching them until i felt satisfied. its d passion that i really feel d achievements d most, n im going 2 miss it alwiz ...

of course im happier now, but i alwiz miss that moments ...